People ask me all the time why is it that I write. They're curious as to when I started and what inspires me to do so. I figure I'd just answer that question for all of you now so that I can just make it clear. In order to tell you why I write I have to start off with when. I started writing when I was a Senior in high school. Of course I wrote papers and essays before that but I really started writing for myself that year. I was dealing with a rocky relationship and a friend suggested that I write about how I felt as a means to cope. The first time I did it I never intended to go back or write again. I don't know what happened but when I wrote for that first time I felt at home. It felt natural, like something I had done thousands of times before. After that first experience I was hooked. Now, why is it that I like it so much? Because of that feeling of home. There's something so freeing about expressing how you feel through words. I write to get away, to escape from the world when I need to breathe. I write because you can never say too much or be too emotional in your words. I write when I don't know what to say. I write to express what I can't convey in actions. I write in secret and I write publicly. I pour out my heart in the words on the page and after that I'm free again. To write is to feel, to grow, to experience. I never write with the intention of being good at it or impressing people with my thoughts. Writing can be a selfish thing but also something that's extremely healing. I write when I'm happy and sad, hurt and joyous, overwhelmed and content. There's no formula to the way a person writes. There's no equation to how you put the words on the page. Sometimes I just write single words in a collection on the page. Sometimes it makes no sense when read by others. Sometimes the style of writing is more important than what's actually said. Writing is home to me, it's the break in the storms, it's safe. I write to feel, I write to live, I write to breathe. That's why I write, because for the rest of my life it will always feel like home.
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